Singer Songwriters

I respect m. I do.
There have been many times that I've listened to them and thought, Get Over It!!!
But these people (like certain poets) lay out their heart, verse after verse.
They put themselves in delicate situations and have their hearts crumpled on.
And they don't turn to stone, they just express the pain in song and hope on...
What an intense way to exist!
I decided somewhere in my early twenties that I'm allergic to drama.
Since then I've been removing it from my life. But I believe SSs believe that drama colors their life.
At times when I'm really emotional and can't walk away from it, I write a song too...
That generally turns in to the kind of song that SSs sing. (It once turned into a culturally disrespectful rap song, but that only happened once).
I can count these, outbursts on 1 hand. (maybe 1 and a half) But the people that heard them regard them as my 'better' songs. I generally have difficulty listening to them, because they remind me of so much. The emotions, the pain, intensity, how can you pick yourself up and decide to go there again and again, in the name of authenticity.
Isn't authenticity overrated?
Seriously, if being authentic about what you think and how you feel, daring to not have an answer and leaving wounds open until you do, if that doesn't make you happy, but just 'real' why be real.
The few times I've been 'as real as I can be' have led to drama. Unresolvable drama. If I could turn back time, would I repeat my actions... not all... in fact, none.
I'm happy they happened and made me who I am and all, but I just simply don't have the balls to choose that again.
I guess, I'm a bit to absolute. I don't think authenticity works, because you have people around you to consider. Being authentic, I would drive myself crazy, let alone people around me. Like the fool of the town, that talks to anyone who will listen and is not really understood or accepted.
Here's me thinking I'm a confident person, but the idea of being as naked as SS scares the shit out of me. One album of that & I'd be the most insecure chick in Holland.
So call it World Pear Pressure, call it prevention of insanity, or just plain chicken syndrome but I could not do what SSs do.
Respect...